Started on my pills yesterday feel a bit washed out on them, have been told that it will get better although im not sure, wont know unless i try. better than feeling the way i do.
Still here in this flat, waiting for grace. keep thinking if she not gonna come soon ill just take loopy back to lucy. im not waiting forever. i feel a bit panicky at the moment heart keeps racing then slows down dont feel hungry either. still might lose a bit of weight.
Trying to distract myself is the hardest thing to do cant concentrate for long periods i get up to do something only to just forget what it was i was supposed to be doing.
Things are beginning to pick up on ebay, so might grab a bargain or too.
Somethings are in friday ad(although at time of writing this blog nothing sold in fri-ad, has on ebay done very well out of it)hopefully they'll sell.
Then i can move on and make a fresh start think i need it. counselling aswell hope it all helps otherwise cant see how or anything will.
Well she still not here yet IS SHE COMING OR NOT Ill just leave in if she dont( at this point my phone rings and its grace) " ive decided not to come and say goodbye to loopy as far as im concerned i said goodbye when i left" blah blah blah, i then said goodbye and goodluck hope you have a nice life) FUCKING HELL, im a impatient fucker. But then she hasnt bothered in the past so why would she bother now. THE END
(NAMES HAVE BEEN CHANGED OUT OF RESPECT FOR PEOPLE I KNOW AND CARE ABOUT)
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